I am back in swing with my Japanese, I cannot afford a tutor at them moment, but I am able to carry on using my work and source books. I have a lot of saved conversations with my tutor too, I can use them for certain things. Once the currency exchange gets a little better, I will most likely start lessons again, but I do not have the cash to consistently be able to pay for it at the moment. I was thinking of doing a few lessons a month and trying my hardest to progress on my own, so I can get the most out of the time I get with a real tutor and use the books for the mundane side of things.
I have been riding my motorbike lately, I need to get some more road experience, I have not had much as it is, with the bike being repaired and other things, so it is good for me to be able to use it now. I rode to Cardiff and back last week and I also went to Abergavenny with James. I hate city riding and big roundabouts, people in cars cut you up all the time and have little to no consideration. But I must learn.
I have decided to build myself a new computer next month, I have enough money to be able to build it and save some cash to go toward my Japan fund, things are straightening out now, I have paid off my debts and I am able to save up some money, I just need to pick a diploma course to do along side my Japanese and I will be all in order. The language is most important to me though, I can continue studying in Japan, but I want to be able to speak, read and write in the native tongue and hand respectively.
My posts are rather messy lately, I am not sure why, I just don't have much drive to make them neat and my thoughts are messy also, well at least I am posting right?
I once again went on a long period of not finding inspiration to post, I seem to lose myself for weeks at a time and then I will begin to ponder, before long I realise I have neglected my own nature and wonder why I slipped into monotony.
Why these lapses occur is a mystery to me, but lately it has been more complete than usually, my body seems to be losing edge, I find my reactions are dulled and my agility waning. I am becoming clumsy, something few people would associate with I.
The weather is breaking, maybe I have neglected my training and beliefs for too long and it is all taking it's toll, that is the most likely reason, in my opinion. I want to see Jannah, I miss taking her out and spending time just watching the day fade away, I feel I have not been myself, especially not with her and all these things are dulling my edge. I need excitement and adventure, I cannot be happy with the daily routines that others cling to with such passion.
I will busy myself tomorrow and get back to studying and not just academically, I know this post is a little erratic, but my thoughts are as such and I need to look upon them in words.
