Shugo Tenshi’s blog

I am back in swing with my Japanese, I cannot afford a tutor at them moment, but I am able to carry on using my work and source books. I have a lot of saved conversations with my tutor too, I can use them for certain things. Once the currency exchange gets a little better, I will most likely start lessons again, but I do not have the cash to consistently be able to pay for it at the moment. I was thinking of doing a few lessons a month and trying my hardest to progress on my own, so I can get the most out of the time I get with a real tutor and use the books for the mundane side of things.
I have been riding my motorbike lately, I need to get some more road experience, I have not had much as it is, with the bike being repaired and other things, so it is good for me to be able to use it now. I rode to Cardiff and back last week and I also went to Abergavenny with James. I hate city riding and big roundabouts, people in cars cut you up all the time and have little to no consideration. But I must learn.
I have decided to build myself a new computer next month, I have enough money to be able to build it and save some cash to go toward my Japan fund, things are straightening out now, I have paid off my debts and I am able to save up some money, I just need to pick a diploma course to do along side my Japanese and I will be all in order. The language is most important to me though, I can continue studying in Japan, but I want to be able to speak, read and write in the native tongue and hand respectively.

My posts are rather messy lately, I am not sure why, I just don't have much drive to make them neat and my thoughts are messy also, well at least I am posting right?

I once again went on a long period of not finding inspiration to post, I seem to lose myself for weeks at a time and then I will begin to ponder, before long I realise I have neglected my own nature and wonder why I slipped into monotony.
Why these lapses occur is a mystery to me, but lately it has been more complete than usually, my body seems to be losing edge, I find my reactions are dulled and my agility waning. I am becoming clumsy, something few people would associate with I.
The weather is breaking, maybe I have neglected my training and beliefs for too long and it is all taking it's toll, that is the most likely reason, in my opinion. I want to see Jannah, I miss taking her out and spending time just watching the day fade away, I feel I have not been myself, especially not with her and all these things are dulling my edge. I need excitement and adventure, I cannot be happy with the daily routines that others cling to with such passion.

I will busy myself tomorrow and get back to studying and not just academically, I know this post is a little erratic, but my thoughts are as such and I need to look upon them in words.

A selection of pictures taken over the last year or so.

I just got home from Manchester and the Brumanch talent time competition...it was great!
Highlights were definitely The Sombreros(The best dance routine I have ever had the complete pleasure of witnessing), Sunny/Suni/Sunni/Sonni/Sonny/Sanny (put a dash though all incorrectly spelled variations =P) The Filipino guy....I forget his name, Laughing at "Pay Up!" and of course the highlight of the day for me -
Jannah playing "I'm not perfect" She also told the peoples in attendance that it was written for "Jay" at which many of them were looking at each other saying "Who's Jay?" I felt special, overwhelmed, shy, embarrassed, proud, grateful and most importantly, I felt love. I felt I could never love a girl like I love her and I would never want to, Jannah alone deserves all I can offer her.
Jannah played the song with a smile on her face and power in her voice. the audience went through a tumult of emotion, from audible "aww's" to happy laughter, people smiled and they all seemed captivated. The song struck me in a way I have never experienced, I was lost for words, thoughts that usually drift around the sea of my mind, were completely engulfed by the ocean of feelings, Jannah's voice started a ripple that turned into the rush of the greatest wave. I was mesmerised even after the song had ended.
Jannah placed 3rd and was beaten out of second by just 1 point, though they could have voted her first or last, it would not have changed the memory she sang into my soul this day.

After the show we headed to Nando's, I had not eaten since around 9am at it was pushing 7pm when we got there. A lot of the other contestants and attendee's had got there first, we waited and ended up with an 8-person table...just for myself, Jannah and Mel. Jannah got hold of Aleana(spelling?) She came with her daughters and we shared food(Though she paid for it all...I felt a little bad about that), Aleana was pretty laid back and easy to talk to, her kids were amusing and they liked hearing Mel's take on how flying heads come to be. We parted ways with them after dinner, Mel, Jannah and I made our way to the train station. After 10mintues of face-pulling, hand signals, dancing and strange facial expressions, my train moved away from the platform and I waved goodbye to Mel and Jannah, till next time I have the pleasure of their company.

-Shugo-

Today I feel determined to achieve my goals this year, I have had this feeling, this draw, this urge to better myself for quite some time. It is exhilarating and exciting, I am driven......but I do not have cash to feed my engine of motivation. I am waiting out on March, after march I can really get back into full swing, this month is going to be a lot of planning and arranging, I will also be looking over my text books and studying on my own. I want to learn Japanese more than anything else in the world, I have a dream and I want to transform it into a plan and then a reality. I will not lay down and let myself fall into the pit of mediocrity.

My bike is running well, I had the new piston fitted and bought it back home, it runs really well. Though it requires a little getting used to, having to keep the throttle open even when the clutch is in, can be a pain.I have to get around to arranging some pictures, I have so many on the computer, many I want to upload here, some I want to have printed and framed.
I decided to pick out my favourite photos and have them framed as decoration for my room, the decor is rather plain, maybe I can make it a little more interesting, at the same time as showing my meager photography skills =P.

I thought I would just make a small update, not much creativity in my mind at the moment, hence the lack of posts, I have some spare time now though, hopefully it will be put to good use.

Oh and on a side note, due to the low exchange rate I have had to put my Japanese of hiatus, I hope to have the cash to start soon...I really do not want to delay much further.

today's was simple, fuel makes bike go, lack of fuel makes bike stop.....James had borrowed the bike a few times and I have not filled it up since, my petrol ran out on me. We cleaned out all the fuel pipes and reattached the air-filter, so maybe the bike will stop cutting out randomly, I also need fuel...that tends to make motor vehicles work.

I got a new Ipod today, 40gbp 8bg new shape nano/mini Ex-display, it was display till somebody took it for me*cough*
I am charging it up now, good stuff XD.

Today I spent the morning with my elder brother, after spending time fixing Harry's computer, changing the brake pads on my father's car....He had blamed the air in the tyres for the vibrations, though it was actually caused by worn brake pads, prehaps annhilated is a better word, they were right down to the metal that holds the pad itself. That took a few hours, thankfully we had a snapon to do the nuts. I also took the bike for a quick run, it is frighteningly fast, I hit 40mph in less than two seconds, going up hill, I did not even realise, I barely had the throttle open. James's is even quicker and the garage have just removed extra gaskits that limited the power.... On a side note, I hate this U.S. spell checker, it keeps trying to steal my U's and add Z's (Zed, not Zee) to everything, it even tried to take the Y from tyres >.>.
Anyway, back on track, my bike is fantastic, I am going out soon to pick up a pair of bike boots and this evening I will be off to the cinema, I am glad to be doing things. Yesterday was sooo slow =/.

I am going to ride the bike up to my uncles tomorrow, he is going to take a look at it, the idle keeps dropping.

I also changed my mind a little on my SF4 gear, I decided against the tournament edition fightstick, I opted for two of the regular fightsticks. I will probably modify them at a later date, add the sanwa parts that the tournament edition has, amongst other things. These are a few of my latest purchases -